not coping

[Jynx]

Lizards!! Ducklings!! What delight @outlander!! Aww love it!!

Sucks to have to push yourself to ensure you got coin in the bank, especially when you're supposed to be resting!! Are you able to ask for like, lower-pressure or lower-energy type work for a bit?

Hope you caught some more sun today, I have been a lizard myself this morning haha 😉🦎💜

[outlander]

thank you @creative_writer healthcare is so expensive. im lucky i can still afford private health insurance. it really does help alot with all the surgeries and procedures

[outlander]

thanks @Snowie

unfortunatley my health had a turn yesterday and i ended up back in hospital in the morning and then again today due to the severity. they cant work out what the new symptoms are so have been referred to a new specialist to see if they can help. im hoping to hear back across the next day or 2 about an appointment but itll have to be during next pay as i wont be able to afford it this week.

it means ive had more days off work again but trying to go back tomorrow with the new medications they gave me giving some relief.

[outlander]

@Jynx  im lucky to have some nice walking tracks near me providing im well enough to use them. 3 of my usual places are out of action at this moment though because of plovers and magpies! but i still have a few nice places to walk. 

im already working the lowest care possible as it is. i can't really do any easier otherwise ill get way to bored and i won't see it as work. if that happens and i get to bored or i start hating working in that specific area it just leads to a decline in my own mental health, so this level is ok i just have to take it day by day at the moment due to now being in hospital twice in 24 hours and no one really knowing what to do. 

[Jynx]

@outlander it makes such a difference hey, having some nice natural spaces nearby. I may not be a huuuge fan of living next to a bunch of sports ovals (especially on the weekends, people get very SHOUTY when they play sport 😅) but there's enough trees and stuff to mean that I get to see lots of native birds!! Coming from a suburb where all we had were the pesky invasive Indian myna birds, seeing galahs and corellas and wee grass parrots is so special!! 

Oh woah no one has any clue? Oh hun how scary!! I hope things don't remain too obscured from you and you get some insight soon! 🤞

[outlander]

i love travelling a few hours south of me where all the birds are friendly. i havent been for a few years but i think i might go back. all the rosellas and lorikeets come and sit all over you and eat seed out of your hands. the cockatoos also come but they generally dont land on you thankfully!

no, theres no clue at this stage so booked in to see a new gp on thursday in hopes theyll refer me to someone good who specialises in the area i need.

im going to head to bed now. its beena tiring day and ive had more bad news and lost yet another support company so i really have no supports at all now. i cant afford to keep privatley paying but my worsening conditions mean i am becoming less independent in some areas sadly but NDIS keep declining my application.

[Snowie]

oh hon @outlander I'm so sorry to read about your health and the need for a hospital visit again. I really hope you can get an appointment soon and they can work out what is going on. You really are in need of a break hon. You show so much strength just to keep going through all of this.

Have been reading about your convo with @Jynx and the birds. We here are lucky enough to have Cockatoo's, Lorikeets, Rosella's and Magpie's in the backyard. I guess that is what happens when you live on some land. We also have a walking track nearby that goes up a hill. Lots of trees around so lucky to spy some birds there too.

@outlander sending some strength and love for today hon.

[outlander]

@Snowie i recieved a phone call today saying that its likely i wont be able to go on priority housing for the public system unless can prove my medical issues. i will hopefully know by tomorrow or friday at the latest. if they say no, it looks like ill be having the current lease terminated at the end of november with no where to go so its getting more stresfull again

[Snowie]

oh hon @outlander no doubt it is getting very stressful for you, especially around the housing drama. I really hope that it works out for you and that you have an answer sooner rather than later.

Please know whatever happens we are here to support you. We are here for you.

[creative_writer]

@outlander the system is so frustrating, I wish I could do something. You shouldn’t have to prove your medical conditions. Sending you lots of hugs 💖🫂