@ShiningStar hello and thank you for your reply.

I'm getting used to putting the symbol next to name . Slowly but surely becoming more tech savvy 🤣

Yes, I so run away now, more with people who trigger my ptsd.  These are unfortunately family members. 

I used to, "kick, fight and scream" , (an analogy there)

But I've learnt that silence and distance is the only way I cope.

I have my son as only immediate family.

I don't feel alone. Weird hey.

But I like a quiet life and being around friends who I love.

I knit. I watch netball and footy

I read books. I actually like grocery shopping 🤣

I find simple things make me happy. I feel blessed with all the wonderful people that are around me, rather than destroying my sense of self with being around those who I simply do not like 🤣

I Google topics on what is happening for me. Like my feelings and thoughts, in order to understand how others cope, which makes me feel

I'm normal, despite my trauma and PTSD..

Cause I don't wanna be a victim

I don't wanna blame others in a sense for their wrong doings 

I simply don't have the strength and energy anymore to keep figting the past and the "poor me" mentality or who did what.

I want to continue to shine in my life 😎