Hey @peace..please call one of the numbers @NikNik listed if you have access to a phone.
Panic attacks are overwhelming..and so physically intense..
So now I am going to ask a question..what got you through your last attack? Can you do it again now?

I used to have attacks all the time. One thing that did help was having a shower..something about the water on my head was very grounding..

And sometimes I would read until the wee hours of the morning..just tried to tire my mind so I could sleep..
Please don't be so hard on yourself..
Giant virtual hug...