Hey @tyme 

At the moment it feels like a step back. I have so much regret for speaking. I feel sick with how I’m going to be treated. She already said stuff in the crib room last night before I said anything. 

I didn’t cry myself to sleep but I just feel the need to cry. My psych wants me to just let go big it’s hard. While I cried last night it was a different cry to what I feel I need. 

Im going to markets at about 7:30 tonight. I wanted to go by myself but of course mum and dad have to come so I have to wait until after they have walk the dog. Heaven forbid should they miss a walk or change routine.