It’s all or nothing @AuntGlow. There is no middle ground! I have tomorrow off be in the go or my brain just goes around in negative circles. I try to be busy to distract from what’s really going on. I burn out a lot. I feel burnt out now and I think that’s why I’m struggling to regulate myself. But I’ll get up in the morning and push again. I can’t learn from my mistakes. I’m feeling really sore after everything.
What do you mean by ‘softening into action’ ?
She still has an irritation in her throat so when I was chatting to the vet the other day she thinks she wants to cray her so I need to make an appointment to see her. I trust whatever she says. She is the one that saved her life!
I don’t know what I can do to enjoy a moment. I just feel to wired all the time. I feel like I constantly have to be in the go or I get bored and just ruminate or get agitated. Then it all feels too much and I repeat it over and over and then it spirals downwards. I’ve been working so hard to distract myself from everything.
Im at the point where I can’t push myself. Thats not healthy.
I hope the performance was good and you enjoyed yourself.
