I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I only really had one fork today. @tyme. We have discussed it. My psych actually talked about spoons yesterday and I’m taking spoons from the upcoming days and that’s why I keep struggling so much. That’s why I’m exhausted. 

Do you want to talk about your forks? 

[tyme]

Yeah.. my fork is really irritating. It's always there... bit of a sad fork. I feel sorry for it. It's twisted and bent. When it's not there, it's great, but when it is there, it's irritating. The sad thing is, this fork doesn't want to be straight. It's inadvertantly chosen to be twisted, sad and lost. @Captain24 

Besides this fork, I really can't complain. Other little forks are things I can laugh off. Life's too short.

[Captain24]

I’m sorry about that fork. I really feel it with your description. @tyme. I wish I could straighten it for you or just make it a little less bent. Something must be going on for you and I’m with you on it. Just listen to that lil cap voice… ‘I’m here with you’

Its good you can laugh the other ones off. 

I think I’ll remove a big one when this surgery is done. It’s really making me anxious, my psych picked it up and now I have to see her next week to work on it before I go in. This time in 2 weeks I’ll be in one day of recovery! 

[tyme]

That's a BIG fork there @Captain24 ! I have this picture in my head of a fork thing you use for the garden... pitch fork??? My mind has gone blank. Is that the big forks name?

Maybe I just need to image Forky (from toy story) so I can laugh this screwed up fork away too. Blck humour???

[Captain24]

It’s definitely a pitch fork! @tyme. Plus getting the financials with it sorted will help remove another one! Plus hopefully a plan will reduce the size of the pitch fork. 

That’s quite funny actually and I think a good way to look at it. Maybe if you can see it in a different light it may be a little less twisted? 

[tyme]

Yeah. I need to laugh off this 'twisted fork'. If I don't laugh, I cry. As I said, I can't change a fork that chooses to be twisted, but I can change the way I look at it, right?

How's your day been anyway @Captain24 ?

[Captain24]

You can change the way. Are you able to look at it from a different angle? Maybe with some compassion for yourself? Are able to or do you want to share what it is? Maybe talking it through? @tyme 

I’ve done 2 loads of washing, all the ironing and taken the dogs to the vet to get their claws done. Then I did the two Lego kits plus some resin but I don’t think it’s going to work how I wanted it too. Oh well keep trying. I also started a 3D puzzle. So I’ve been trying to help myself. 

[tyme]

Sorry to be so cryptic. Let's just say it's a twisted fork 🙂 I'll let you know how it goes. Hopefully I'll forget about the twisted fork soon because my life is so awesome. I can't let a twisted fork get in the way.

Did you have any forks today?

I'm feel very energetic and well today. I had time in the sun, got a few things done and a few things on my list that I have to do. The list keeps me going.

It sounds like you got a fair bit done too! You would be so awesome to hang out with. 

Do you take the dogs to the vets just to get their nails done??? @Captain24 

[Captain24]

It’s ok. Being crypt gives me an understanding of how it feels for you. @tyme Im really hoping that it eases for you soon. You don’t need a fork to derail you. Just remember self care and self compassion. Also me on your shoulder supporting you! 

No new forks. Just the pitch fork and a couple of little ones, like having to work tomorrow. Having to sort out money for this pitch fork. I’m trying to look forward with hope but I have a negative fork holding me back. 

Im so glad you are feeling good! It’s a nice feeling after being in the sun and being able to see accomplishments. 

I do feel like the last 2 days have kinda fallen into place. I’ve done everything on my list and had self care time. I didn’t go to the support group last night though. I just wasn’t up for it. I didn’t need the positivity that they are about. Sometimes it’s just not what you want to hear. 

I reckon we would get along really well. You sounded nd pretty awesome yourself! I can be fun to hang out with if it’s the right person. I’m a little bit silly and one of the words on my mirror is funny. I don’t see that but people laugh a lot! 

I certainly do. Pix bites!!! I handed her over to the vet nurse and warned her that she might need a muzzle. She snarled at the nurse as she took her away! Apparently she behaved herself though. Jett was a really good boy though. 

[tyme]

We need each other to remind us of how to manage forks! Oh, and pitch forks! These damn things get in the way, eh? @Captain24 To be honest, just talking about it like this makes it so much lighter. I actually have a smile on my face lol.

I have to laugh when I think about Pix and Jett. Geezz.... she sounds like that one dog that gives you so much grief but you still love her. It's an interesting one!

I hope your financial stuff gets sorted... or, maybe YOU can reach out to your bro this time! About time he helps you!

What time are you working tomorrow?