I can’t cope

[Captain24]

It was hard to take time. @tyme  But I needed too. 

I feel really broken right now. I feel shattered. I feel like I have no control. I have no strength. I have no fight. 

It feels like there is too much going on and I just can’t handle it anymore. 

Im a failure. Im failing at life. I don’t want to go one anymore. 

Im glad you got it back earlier than you thought and can add to it. I know you will make it amazing! I can understand that your brain would be full. You have so much going on! 

[Captain24]

Sorry I’m too much. @tyme 

I know how busy you are, I want you to be really ready. 

I’ll go and leave you alone. 

[Captain24]

I just tried to chat on SCBS but I waited for ages for nothing. I gave up. Now I have to hold it in.

I have so much that I need to get out. It’s eating me up inside. It’s taking control of me. I am feeling so broken right now. 

It’s all too much. 

[PrincessLettuce]

Hi @Captain24 ,

Sorry to hear that you're having a hard time.

These services can be hard to reach sometimes, but so worthwhile when we do finally link in.

Would you consider reaching out to SCBS again, or maybe another support instead (e.g. lifeline)?

- HelpfulBee

[Shaz51]

sitting with you @Captain24 

RUOK my friend xx

[Ru-bee]

Here with you @Captain24 💜

[Captain24]

Thanks @Ru-bee 

Not ok

[Ru-bee]

What's going on for you at the moment @Captain24? Is it yesterday taking it's toll, or has something else happened? 

[Captain24]

Sorry @Ru-bee. I took one of my nighttime meds and went to sleep. I’m thinking maybe I should take another one and go back to sleep 

It probably is from yesterday but I’m also going through a med change

which I guess isn’t helping. 

I just have the feeling of not wanting to be alive. I just don’t want to be here and I want to give up on everything 

[Ru-bee]

That's quite a bit all at once @Captain24 I'm sorry it's all feeling so heavy right now.

Are you feeling safe at the moment?