Life can be a Pain

[Shaz51]

Thanks @Meowmy xx 

[outlander]

what an ordeal youve had @Owlunar thats really tough and im sorry you had to try and manage all that without supports in place.

i hope your going abit better now

[Owlunar]

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Hi all

I am gradually recovering - actually considering everything over the last few months I have done well - and it has been a challenging experience.

My mouth is nearly healed - I am seeing the oral surgeon for the post-operative check-up tomorrow - I still have stage two to deal with but that will not be what I have just been through - something I would not like to repeat. 

And life goes on.

I have felt invalidated and disrespected by my daughter and this hurts - I know other people have experienced this sort of thing - it has gone on long enough and I have drawn a line - bugger the sand - it's pretty well concrete - I just don't give her the right to speak to me with such disregard.

So I am giving myself time to recover from the events of the last few months and then I will insist on a private conversation in person - and tell her how I feel - not what I think of her or her behaviour - just how I feel - I have a good idea that no one needs to hear a litany of their bad behaviour which it was the norm in my past - from my family.

Of course - silence is golden - and then - truth is beyond price - but it needs to be how I feel rather than what she has said. I respect myself and deserve better - so do we all.

I haven't felt up to writing much - or doing much - lately - totally sapped of energy - I have started eating my normal diet - well almost - and this helps. I have been reading a lot, listening to classical music and doing jigsaws on my phone - I am so glad I have come this far - 

Thanks everyone for your messages - I am not sure if I will ever catch up - I have been reading some of the conversations - this is good - sometimes more than I can deal with - and we all need to know those boundaries

All the best everyone

Mumma Bear

Owlunar

[Owlunar]

Thanks @Shaz51 

You have so much to cope with yet you are always here for other people - you are a blessing to have here - I am so glad you are here.

I hope Mr Shaz is feeling better - he could do better but I guess that effort - even the idea - has to be his choice. It must be hard standing in the wings though

I hear you - I'm sending my love

Mumma Bear

Owlunar

[TAB]

..wel done and Good Luck @Owlunar  😎

[Shaz51]

Ohh hugs my mumma bear @Owlunar ❤️❤️

Sitting with you daily 

My daughter is very picky, could be in her bad books in a blink of an eye 

She loves her dad - Mr shaz which is the main thing 

Mr shaz says he is feeling very old and feels he is getting worse everyday 

[Owlunar]

I'm on the same page @Shaz51 - I seem to be looking older since my dental surgery - but then - I have an 80th birthday card which I am deliberately leaving on my tv table as a qualification.

I am sure Mr Shaz hasn't reached this great age yet - but yes - I do understand - I get it for him and for you - 

Oh dear, dear, dear.

About your picky daughter - I have mug with the right statement - says

"Teenage daughter survivor" - yes - and she is in her early 50s

I do hear you

Mumma Bear

Owlunar

[Shaz51]

Ha ha my mumma bear @Owlunar 

People tell him he is only young -- 63 he is 

Yep daughter is 36 and became a mum and we are sure she has bipolar 

Her brothers have adhd 😁

Mr shaz gets his results of the brain scan,  other scans and blood tests next week 

For me the kidney specialist is happy but wants me to see a dietician 

[Owlunar]

A dietician @Shaz51 - ooh.

You are living on a restrictive diet already - are they going to take away something else?

I care - I was eating mushy food for a couple of weeks - that was not my choice - it was okay - but - you know.

Are you on a list for a kidney transplant yet? I guess this has to take time - but the poor little kidney is battling his best for you.

I get it - hmm

Mumma Bear

Owlunar

[Shaz51]

It is very interesting my mumma bear @Owlunar 

My parathyroid levels are high because they are trying to regulate what the kidney disease is doing and are taking the calcium out of the my bones to help out 

Will tag @Jynx here to see what I mean xx 

Mr shaz has had all the tests to give me one of his kidneys whan the time comes 

Rejection is a very big thing for me , past and present and will keep going on in the. Future