Hi @Appleblossom @Meowmy @Oaktree @outlander @MDT @Zoe7
@TAB @Faith-and-Hope @EternalFlower @tonys @ClockFace
Yes - it's me - feeling at last I can come back to the land of the living after all the stress of having dental surgery under a GA - wow! I can be proud of myself for doing all this.
But at a physical cost - I have been exhausted. It was more painful than I expected - I didn't really think about how I would feel after the event - facing down PTSD is quite an exercise and I am no spring chicken. I have felt whacked out and eating mushy food is not meant to sustain anyone well - I really thought I would be up to cooking something for myself but no - I have not - still - I have bought all the Strawberry Up-and-Go from the Foodworks, drunk plenty of soup with lots of pasta and diced pears - and bitznpiecez -
And this morning I was up to ordering groceries online and will make something a bit more nourishing. The main idea is not to stress about stuff and survive - somehow - and I have.
The hospital stuff went well - I had an IV premed. which helped with the stress - I wasn't scared or anxious - I just had to let my demons from the past have their say as they must sometimes - they were very kind and understanding - I was in overnight and I am glad I did stay in - and I was glad to be alone at home in spite of feeling so tired and washed out - home is the best place - right? Right!
I was astounded with the people who drove me to and from the hospital - I have lived in this city for 80 years and I thought about it since - someone could dump me anywhere in Greater Melbourne and all being well I could find my way home. My drivers didn't know where we were going or want to trust my directions - was this ageism or what? I felt frustrated - I had to speak my mind. I had to take charge - and at least - on the way in I didn't think much about the operation - on the way home I was annoyed. I did report this to my agency. Wow - do some people think we were always old and therefore know nothing? It felt insulting. !🤔
Still - although I didn't feel up to writing I have been reading - other people have been having a tough time - and I hear you - hopefully I can get around to replying - I do care about everyone - we have to put ourselves first though - I am big into self-care and hope other people can do the same.
And thanks for your support and messages - it was great to know people cared - and we can last things out when there are people who have us in their thoughts.
All the best
Mumma Bear
Owlunar
