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[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur  good. Hopefully it can come through quickly for you.xxx

[The-red-centaur]

@greenpea I should be seeing them Tuesday.


I'm sick of my dumb legs. They should have just amputated them like they were going to.

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur  Good Tuesday is not long away. Just stay stong you are on the home run now. Nearly there. I know it is super frustrating. I can only appreciate how much being stuck in bed in hospital for so many months.Just keep thinking of how wonderful it will be when you have a place of your own. Somewhere where you can be independent. You are tough, tougher than you think xx

[The-red-centaur]

@greenpea thanks. I'm really struggling tonight. They've cut back my painkillers.

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur  why do they do that? I cannot understand the rational of having you in pain. Makes me angry thinking about it to be honest.

[The-red-centaur]

@greenpea apparently I can't be discharged on opiods.

[The-red-centaur]

It hurts so much 😞



I don't know if I can deal with it.

[The-red-centaur]

Why does everything have to hurt so much...both physically and emotionally. I hate everything. I should have died 117 days ago. I should die now ..at least hurt myself.



(I'm not actually going to kms, I can't sort of, so I'm just gonna go numb by the only means i know how)

[The-red-centaur]

What I've been working on tonight... bad photo of it but meh. @greenpea 

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur  Hey The-red-centaur your drawing is great particularly drawn to the eyes and the lined forehead. How are you going this morning?