I’m still awake an hour later. My meds don’t seem to be working for sleep either. Why bother taking them. They are useless anyway. 

Jett has finally jumped in my bed and is now asleep beside me. It’s nice to know that he actually cares. 

The thoughts are still so dark. Still going around in my head. The biggest one is the hardest to try and stop. In a way it’s good I don't have the energy to get out of bed. Well good for others not myself though. Oh how I wish. Without anything changing it will be one day soon. I really don’t think anyone would care anyway.