Riding a wave

[Phoenix_Rising]

I'm so scared. They tell me it's my wonky communication, but it doesn't make sense to you either. But then I'm shut down from asking you. I'm SO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't understand ANY of this. I'm so so so SO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

[Former-Member]

I am so, so sorry, @Phoenix_Rising. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

I want @NikNik. Scared scared scared scared. I email and they don't answer. I ask the question and they ignore. They tell me they can't talk to me because I'm too wonky. But when I try to ask you guys to explain, they silence me by removing the post. I'm so so so so so so so so SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Phoenix_Rising]

I'm scared @Former-Member. I'm so so so scared. This is crazy-making stuff. I'm SO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Phoenix_Rising]

Scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

I want @NikNik. SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Phoenix_Rising]

Scared scared scared scared scared scared I want @NikNik. @Faith-and-Hope SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Phoenix_Rising]

Scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared. They want me to disappear, just like the church. Shhhhhhhhhh don't tell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

[Phoenix_Rising]

There's no one. Shhhhhhhhhh don't tell. Secret. Don't tell. 

I do not matter,

I'm only one person,

Destroy me completely,

Then throw me away.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member I'm SCARED. I'm so so so scared!!!!!!!!!!!! Shhhhhh secret, don't tell. SCARED. SCARED. SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!