@MrsFahey
Thank you for addressing each point and for the suggestions. I'm actually resting mostly and catching up on much needed weeks of very little sleep. I am trying to address my exhaustion, pressure and extremely high stress levels.
I have a landlord and a lease agreement. Exactly the same as a real estate without the real estate. He is such a great landlord. Right now, I'm just parking all of that temporarily. I need rest and sleep. I will address it when I absolutely have to.
My mental health right now us more minute by minute, hour by hour. Looking at a full day is beyond me. I do work. (I work for myself in my own business) This contributed to my mental breakdown. I was overloaded with other pressures, depression and anxiety while trying to maintain my business and work. I was going through many changes regarding my profession and I had no support. A million and one things happening personally and professionally led to my very serious mental breakdown.
I absolutely LOVE what I do. I am completely in love with my business and job. I'm slowing down a bit because it does not make any sense to put myself back into the same position. Clearly change us a no questions asked definite. My brain is scrambled from the breakdown so I need time. I'm still working. Only 20% of the time though really. I get tired very easily.
I love going for walks. I do a tiny bit everyday. I am going to try do more of it as exercise is very beneficial for mental health and it does help to get fresh air and sunshine even if you feel really awful.
The fact and the key central words are recovery and rebuild. I think of it like owning a house and the house burns down. Nothing is salvageable and it needs to be gutted out. Metaphorically that is my life. Like a house burning down, I would need to recover and my house would need to be rebuilt. That takes time. How it us going to end up looking, right now I do not know.
