I can’t cope

[Captain24]

With everything I’ve taken I should still be asleep. But no.. I’m awake. I don’t want to be

[Captain24]

Before I get in trouble for not being recovery focused, sleep was my recovery. I’ve also had an icy pole to try and regulate. Part of my safety plan. It didnt work though. I’m watching tv. Part of my safety plan. Not working. 

[Captain24]

T/W SH

Im having some SH urges right now. I haven’t done it for weeks. But I feel like it’s a struggle right now

[Shaz51]

@moderator , @tyme , @rav3n 

@Captain24 , here for you xx

[Tolly]

Hi @Captain24 it has been a really difficult day for you today and you have been really doing all the things that you can to delay those urges which I know takes all your energy and strength- I know you have had your icy pole and you have watched something to distract but wondering if you can put off acting on the urges for a while longer and maybe get through the day without acting on them- are there any other ideas you think you might want to try which are good for you , just to delay those feelings and urges? maybe you have some other ideas on your personal safety plan 🌺

[Captain24]

I was just outside in the cold @Tolly. Now I’m freezing but it didn’t work either. I’ve had a fisherman’s friend lolly but I’m not seeing the point in that. It was suggested by my psych. 

[Captain24]

I’ve had a hot shower. That’s about all I can do. I’ve given it my all. I’ve tried really hard. I’ve given things ago that I didn’t think I would. I’ve listened to my psych and done her suggestions. I’m stuck 

[Bow]

Is there someone you can call?

[PrincessLettuce]

Hey @Captain24 !

It sounds like you're having a hard time at the moment. 

Maybe it's time to phone a friend or call a helpline? Or even give doggie a cuddle?

It's wonderful that you've been trying so many things, that says a lot about you!

[Captain24]

I called a friend. It distracted me for a bit. She talked about herself and didn’t ask about me. @PrincessLettuce 

I’ve given the dogs a bone so they are both happy. It’s so good to see the joy with Pix when she gets it. It does make me smile a little.