I can’t cope

[tyme]

Wow @Captain24 . That's pretty full on. Are you okay with the pace she is going?

Please take care of yourself. If you don't hear from me, I may have logged off.

Please know I'm thinking of you. I really hope meds will help, plus everything else on top of that. I don't have an answer about how long this will go for, but I really hope things will improve. 

Hugs to you.

[Captain24]

It was so much @tyme but I guess it’s the only way to find everything out. 

I just have to wait until I have enough money to make the next appointment. But I’ll see her soon. I feel like I need it to finish what we started. It’s like the is so much unanswered. 

Talk to you later. 

[tyme]

Did you look into getting a 715 healthcheck? You may be able to get all that support free, including any PBS medications as part of Closing the Gap @Captain24 

I'm thinking of you. Hope you are okay.

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

I did google it but it can’t be done here. What a surprise. 

I already get closing the gap. All pbs meds are at health care card price however most of my meds aren’t pbs. 

I booked another appointment with the Pdoc for the 3rd of April. Could’ve been sooner but work got in the way. 

I managed to do two loads of washing today and I left the house for the first time since I got home from work Monday morning. I also had my first shower since then too. But other than that I have been in bed. 

I did order lunch while I was out. I asked for plain rice but they gave me fried rice. i didn’t know until I got home. I can’t eat meat today so that screwed me over. 

How are you going? How’s Ruby? 

[tyme]

At least you looked it up. re the health check @Captain24 . Maybe next time you go somewhere on a holiday, you can see if you can book an appt?

Oh, your meds are NOT PBS? Really?

Congrats for making it out of bed! Well done! As for the rice... grr.. did you call them up to complain? That's so annoying!

It's like I bought a Boost yesterday, and when I drank it, it was so yuck.. watered down and gross. By that time, I was home so I wrote to them and told them. I only get one flavour from there so I know when it's the wrong taste.

This is a bit gross, but with my shingles, the blisters are popping and oozing everywhere! All over my back.

[Captain24]

One of my mood stabilisers are for epilepsy. So I don’t qualify and my anti-psychotic is for psychosis which I don’t have. It helps with the mania though. 

Nah I didn’t complain but by eating it has made me feel guilt. 

I get Boost when I go on holidays and there is only one I get as well. 

So you do have shingles! I meant to ask last night, sorry I was inconsiderate and didn’t. That’s must feel so gross. Are you sick or in pain? 

[tyme]

Oh, but surely the mood stabiliser is PBS? IDK @Captain24  That gets so expensive then! I pay full price for all my meds, and it's a lot.

Oh, yes, I went to the doctor and she said it's defo shingles and only the beginning of it. So i'm supposed to stay home even though it's not contagious as people who haven't had chicken pox can be affected. However, I can go out once the blisters dry... at the moment, they are weeping.

It's not as painful as they say. It sorta feel good with the little 'pins and needles' feeling on your back every time you move. Sleeping tonight may be eww though. I've also been having pain killers for any fever so it's actually okay. 

All good. You are not being inconsiderate for not asking. You have your own stuff to deal with.

As for getting the wrong food, you may need to start being assertive with your food orders! That can be a starting place. 

What are you doing for the rest of tonight? Plans? Do you go for walks with Jett and Pix?

[Captain24]

It’s not pbs for bipolar @tyme. It’s ok cause they are only $35. The anti-psychotic is $89

Are they itchy? Weeping sounds awful. Pins and needles sounds kinda nice. 

Does that mean the kids can’t come over? 

Just watching tv. I did try to do some Lego but I wasn’t into it. I should walk them but I don’t. I don’t have the energy or motivation. I am a really bad mum

[tyme]

TV's good. No probs there @Captain24 If that's the way you are going to get through today, that's okay.

The kids have all had chicken pox, so it's okay. But the doc doesn't want me to be around any immuno compromised people.

Not to mention, can't really wear a bra. Pops all the blisters... it's so gross.

Is it too hot out there? You know, some fresh air may help you. Even up and down the street with the dogs?

All good if you don't want to. 

Are you a puzzle person. As in jigsaws?

[Captain24]

It’s all I got right now @tyme. 

At least it’s all good with the kids. Staying home is safer for everyone though. Even though that must suck for you cause you are always out. 

I went out without a bra today! They are overrated! It’s only as I was only going out for 10 mins. 

It was only 28 today but was windy. Not that I’m complaining about the wind as it was tame. 

Im to ashamed to go out the front door. The garden is a mess but I haven’t mowed the lawn either. It’s really bad. I’m really embarrassed. 

I hate jigsaw puzzles. I do these wooden things that I think are puzzles but it’s just like Lego but with plywood. 

The funniest thing just happened. Pix buried herself under the throw rug. Jett couldn’t see her so he was running around panicking because he couldn’t find her. I had to take the blanket of Pix so he could clam down. The distress level was high!!!