I can’t cope

[tyme]

I think the issue is, is that you have been trying so hard for so long @Captain24 . It's a lot of effort to keep pushing those thoughts away.

So maybe it's time to just let them go instead?

And yes, this takes practice because it's not 'normal' to do this. By nature, if there's danger, we fight it.

Hope this makes a tad of sense.

I'm logging off now. I'll catch you next time

[Captain24]

I’m feeling so tired. I feel like I can’t function today. I have things to do like bath the dogs but it’s so hard to push myself to do it. I have to do it though as I changed my bed linen so I need the dogs clean too. I just want to curl up in a ball and forget that I exist. I don’t want there to be a today. I don’t want to be alive today. 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 here with you 💜 

I need to wash Toby too today, maybe we can be accountability buddies? Though I'll have to wait until after work to wash him as it takes to long to do on my lunch break.

I've got a bit of mandatory training I have to get through today but I can check in when I can today to see how it's going if that helps? 

Just take it one thing at a time, go gently

[Captain24]

Thanks @Ru-bee. It feels like a really hard day and I feel alone. 

Ive gotten everything ready for the bath. I don’t want to do it. It takes so long to do both of them. But with you behind me maybe I can talk myself into it. 

Thanks for helping me. I’ve been really difficult for you all lately. I’m really sorry. 

Hope the training goes well 

[Captain24]

They are bathed. @Ru-bee. Not fully dry close though but I just didn’t have it in me. The weather is ok so they will finish off shortly. 

Just waiting for lunch and then I think I’ll just go back to bed. I’m really not ok today. It’s a real struggle. 

[Ru-bee]

Go you @Captain24! I get it, we all have off days. If you need to retreat to bed today maybe that's okay!

[Captain24]

Hey @Ru-bee 

I’ve been asleep for the last couple of hours. I just woke up and I wish I hadn’t. It hasn’t helped at all. 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 I'm sorry that having a nap didn't help. What are you doing this afternoon? Is there anything that might bring even a bit of comfort to this hard day?

[Captain24]

I’m just staring at a blank tv screen. @Ru-bee. I really don’t have anything. 

I just got a quote to get my car fixed and it’s $2000

[Ru-bee]

Oh no, I've been avoiding to take mine because I think I'm going to get a similar bill @Captain24