I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I was punished for feeling that way and I don’t mean sent to my room @AuntGlow. 

I can have a go at that in a couple of days as I defs won’t have time in the next two. I’m not very good at rewriting the script. 

[AuntGlow]

I know, and that wasn't okay. You didn't deserve to be treated that way @Captain24, ever. 💛

Yes, of course - take your time. This isn't an easy exercise, I am challenging you a bit here, but I am hoping it will help with some reframing, self-compassion, and gentle intention-setting. ☺️

[tyme]

Cap @Captain24 , you home?

[Captain24]

No I was at work and I am tonight. @tyme 

Can you ppllleeeaassee tag me when you’re on on Friday?

My brothers girlfriend is going through some stuff and she is a borderline so I’d like some advice and also how to help my poor brother who’s copping the brunt of it. 

[tyme]

Cap @Captain24 , I'll do my best. There's been a change in shifts as of today so I'm not working on Friday.

Before I hear too much, PLEASE remember to have a think about your boundaries with your brother. I know you have a BIG heart and you want to help, but I'd encourage you to remember yourself too. Of course I'm not saying that you don't help him, but have a think about what you can and can't do.

I really hope your brother is okay. If he has any specific questions, please ask away. Just remember that I'm only sharing what I know from my own experience and research. I can't speak for everyone who has BPD.

But I'd love to help out.

Hope you are okay.

Thinking about you.

[AuntGlow]

Hi @Captain24, 

How are you feeling? 

It's your last day of work today, right? 💛☺️

[Captain24]

Hi @AuntGlow.

How are you? 

I’ve just woken up. Yes, I have finished now for a month. Today is always a bit of a right off. It’s hard to function. 

Im still lying in bed as I don’t want to disturb the dogs. 

[AuntGlow]

I'm well! Very busy week in my world, performing in a dance show on the weekend - so just prepping for that! @Captain24 

I understand. You don't need my permission to rest, but I really want to encourage and support you in taking the day slow. 

Awww little cuties. Are you comfy or wishing you could move around? haha

[Captain24]

I miss performing! @AuntGlow. For someone with severe social phobia, I was always able to get up on stage. What’s your performance if you are able to share. 

I had to get them lunch so I got up. But I lay there not moving so that they are comfortable. You should see some of the angles I have to sleep in. 

While i was sleeping, pix and Jett ran out of my room barking and carrying on. I get up and here is lunch in my kitchen bench. Mum came in and I had no idea. It was only an hour ago! 

I do have to be careful today. I do need to go grocery shopping at some stage as I don’t want to face the crowds tomorrow but it’s really busy on Friday's too. Not sure I have the strength for people or dealing with finding a car park. 

[Captain24]

Feeling really fat and lazy. I’ve just gotten back into bed as I don’t want to face the day. I’m not able to distract myself at all. I can’t focus on anything.