Tabaluga's

[Bunniekins]

@StuF  yeah he is a big L liberal which i am always against.

[Bunniekins]

@Dreamy  yeah they are pretty useless when i rang up a certain health line the guy said omg you want to ******* and i said no it is part of my symptoms that i get these thoughts but it doesnt mean i am going to do anything it is an intrusive thought which is awful for me to deal with.

made me freak out that i would have the police and ambos visiting any minute.  luckily for me i have a great mental health nurse who knows me well and knows i am no threat.

[Dreamy]

@Bunniekins oh yes, I live with suicidal ideation so have those intrusive thoughts daily. But you are right it doesn't mean we are going to act on them, it's simply a thought that we have to deal with. 

Usually I struggle to know what's going to be helpful for me but today I knew exactly what was needed and couldn't get the help I asked for. So I'm left trying to keep myself grounded which is a real struggle when one keeps dissociating.

[Bunniekins]

@Dreamythat is hopeless that you are now left alone to deal with it.  i am sorry to hear that.  is it worthwhile to try a different organization for help?

[TAB]

No they haven't @Bunniekins ?

[Dreamy]

@Bunniekins I've already tried them all. And I was told the same thing by 2 in saying that they didn't know how to help me and couldn't do anything for me and the others I just got told to contact the others which I'd already done. So really not helpful in my situation but anyway, life must go on right? 

[Bunniekins]

@TAB  hopeless. well they damn well should.  see gp asap and ask for a referral to a lymphatic specialist and do gentle walks not strenuous. look up lymphatic exercises on google for legs.  trust me on this.

[Bunniekins]

@TABs most importantly moisturize your legs after showering to stop cracks in skin letting bacteria in.

[Dreamy]

@Bunniekins ok if i don't laugh I'm going to cry right now. I tried again with a crisis service and explained what's happening to me with having flashbacks, the person asked me to describe what's happening when I'm having them as in details of the events I'm seeing (traumatic having to try and explain it) so I did my best to tell them then the person is like so it sounds like you've had bad dreams. Honestly wanted to send the face palm emoji so badly 😂

[TAB]

Yes I did wonder re cracked heels @Bunniekins