Hi @CS22, yes, i know that feeling when survival demands we just have to stop pushing ourselves onto our adult kids. Give them enough space, get yourself well, at peace and busy again and they will come round. Fingers crossed. Sometimes i fake it with my son, so it doesn't hurt so much (easy over the phone), we'll get there. A handful of people here on the forums have helped me see its not all my fault. It's just them all grown up finding their own way, own mind, own choices and values.
Hmm, as for the x, maybe we should NOT talk about him. Don't want to trigger a PTSD reaction. Sounds like he was never really a loving H to you. Shame the kids tend to side with money.
It hurts to lose a daughter or feel like you've lost her. Whatever happened to 'friends for life' ?
@Appleblossom can relate to your story too, and many others, its just not fair, especially after what you so aptly describe as years of 'giving, giving, giving' to feel slapped in the face, betrayed, abandoned and dishonoured. Is that how it feels for you too? No wonder you get angry, it attacks everything you hold dear. And it hurts. I think i get it.
Like the reasons behind your username, makes sense to me. And I like 2's too (&4's&8's). And gosh, i so relate to the double digits reappearing. Googled it once and numerologists say during those times we see them a lot - are going through a "life changing transformation into a deeper more meaningful existence" (hmm, could mean lots of things, what do you think?). Oh, and ya don't have to be good at maths to know 2+2=22 lol (suck it up all you OCD mathematicians out there lol). Sorry, CS22, havecto warn you i have these outbursts of attempts at humour sometimes, and moods but you'll get to know me. Also love that you're pic is about hugzz, plenty of them going around here. Something tells me you're gonna fit in real well.
💞👍Don't get too lost in detail on how to introduce yourself, you've already disclosed a lot today. Maybe slowly tell us more about your hobbies, responsibilities, health and passions. Remember you're anonymous.
We do have much in common, i too have tried to write my life story as long but find it too confronting and get distracted by life's curveballs, daily disorganisation etc. Being creative does require us to be centred. These are things i'd like to ask when ya up to it. Not all at once:
- do you think you have PTSD? or another MI
- Are you seeing a psychologist?
- is your physical health ok?
- what support do you have, no matter how small
- do you have a pet?
- do you have any hobbies?
- Whats your favourite dish?
Will you be posting something on the Friday Feast thread tonight? Think its 7pm. Maybe see you there
😉Big HUGZZ BackAtYa
🙂 💗💗💗 xxxxxx
