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15-01-2024 10:35 PM
15-01-2024 10:35 PM
Brain Going Blank?!
It’s like my mind is mostly empty until a traumatic memory appears.
I don’t seem to have many thoughts or internal monolog unless I really force it, either.
Does anyone else experience this?
I’m sure I used to think about ideas and
things too…
But now it’s like I’m just on autopilot mode with no thoughts until a memory pops up.
I find it hard to think independently too, it’s like my opinions are just other peoples that I internalise.
I think I’ve been like this for a long time but it definitely feels worse since I was out on antipsychotics a few months ago.
Has anyone else had this as a side affect of meds?
I feel like my memory and overall problem solving is down the drain too.
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15-01-2024 10:55 PM
15-01-2024 10:55 PM
Re: Brain Going Blank?!
Some people think visually as one alternative
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16-01-2024 10:33 PM
16-01-2024 10:33 PM
Re: Brain Going Blank?!
I have this too @trying_again thanks for posting your experience.
I have opposing ideas about it.
When I am experiencing actual trauma, I will stare into space, it feels like no thoughts at all are in my head. I cannot focus on things like tv or music. It is sensory overload. I feel like a zombie. I experience severe anxietys too.
In moments when I feel well, I feel like I'm in a dream state. There is not many thoughts about things in particular in my head. Except, I get very excited about doing the next thing & have 6 activities going at once. This usually leads to anxietys & overwhelmed.
I need to have awareness that focus on one thing at time. Very difficult.
I don't know that our brains are that smart anyway. Having no thoughts is maybe the way we are meant to function. If I think of a baby, the natural mind is likely not having inner dialogue, it simply is.
I am slowly learning that I already know myself & taking on other people's opinions is not relevant or productive.
It can be very difficult. Easy to get confused. I rely heavily on other people to guide me & also, there is nothing wrong with being discerning. I try to value how I feel, rather than what my brain tells me. The brain can run in circles trying to find reasons for things.
Our feelings are complex too. A counsellor mentionedv example of feelings of anger when loved one passes away.
Objectively, anger would be incorrect feeling. If that makes sense.
Let feelings happen, good & bad, joy & tragedy. There is not always justifiable reasons why the emotions occur, however, all feelings are valid.
I try to be kind to myself. Not easy. Self Compassion.
Hypothesis: maybe the thoughts disappear when they don't make sense anymore. The mind goes blank.
It doesn't feel nice. It's a sense of losing oneself. Losing identity.
The AP definitely stopped my thinking. I think it was good thing because all my thoughts were stressful.
I have memory problems & problem solving takes huge mental effort.
Try to rest. It's ok. The mind & body are mysterious. I want to believe they are self healing. Far more than we have the any idea of.
I appreciate that what you are experiencing is scary & not fun. The mind will come good again. I think we get very overloaded, as you mentioned traumatic memories. These have been buried for so long. The mind & spirit needs time to heal.
Talking to counsellor, psychologist is helpful to unload ask of the things you are going through.
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25-02-2024 12:53 AM
25-02-2024 12:53 AM
Re: Brain Going Blank?!
Yesssss @trying_again me too…
I feel like it was from before I was on my antipsychotics, when your in full psychosis mode! It’s like you have melted the ingoing and outgoing data receptors in your brain or something?
Now I have hardly any past memories, people bring up stories about what’s happened in the past and I don’t remember these events at all or they are very fuzzy! Even people telling me where we’re going for dinner on Saturday night and I forget the location or I don’t even soak in the information in the first place.
Now I’m on my antipsychotics I just feel dumb, like I have no intellectual thoughts or anything to share in conversations cause i don’t have the words to get involved.
Even writing this I’ve had to spell check and think carefully about what I’m writing I think I did alright with the word intellectual that’s my one big word of the week done and dusted.
I feel like I have onset dementia I forget everything literally.
Unsure if you can relate to what I’m saying, I just read your post and thought woooh that’s so me.
I’ve thought about downloading a brain teaser game to get my brain going but that’s as far as I went just a thought no action!
If you find the solution to gain memory again please share with me 🙏