I did my talk this morning about my book. After that I came home and slept for two and a half hours. It did not go very well. Two of eight people turned up. That was fine by me. I truly did not mind.
I don't know what to say. One of the attendees spoke very rudely to me. Apparently to him, I was waffling. He said he wasn't interested in my waffling and hearing about the things I've said.
I was told I hadn't looked hard enough with my research and so on. Ahh well, it's only his opinion. It doesn't hold any real weight to me. I thanked them for attending, giving their time and wished them well.
In saying that, I'm really over everything. I've got many problems of my own. So, it's time now to put the book aside and focus a lot more on me. I feel I'm in deep water, drowning. Struggling to stay afloat. Some things are no longer. I actually have no desire to talk to anyone. I'm just too damn tired and as indicated today, no one's interested in listening to me.
I'm going to take a break from Sane for a bit. My decision to do that us not cause of anyone here or this place at all. I just feel bone tired and words are the only thing I've got left. Apparently they don't mean anything to others, so I'm done with that too.
I need space. The way I see the world now is not great. I'm at a fork in the road and I need time.
I'm still staying a member, just not going to be here for a bit.
Thank you to everyone who has reached out and supported me over this last month (I think) lost track of time.
I hope I made some small difference to others too.
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